I love my husband! I fail as a MOM!

I just want to write down that I love my husband! I feel bad that he is gone a lot. I feel bad that I usually enjoy it! Only because it means that as soon as the kids are in bed it is my time. All my time. I don't have to worry about what anyone else wants to do. This week I have found though that I miss him. I miss seeing, and hugging, and talking face to face to him. He has been very lovey dovey lately. (At first I was nervous because I was afraid to find out what made him snap to!) He makes me want to be a better mom. Speaking of that I am NOT a great mom.

In Grantsville they have this thing called a sociable. This year is the 126th annual one. That tells you what kind of tradition it is! The first year we were here for it it happened to be the same day as the General Young Women conference. Both stakes in the city showed it on Sunday. Well part of the festivities is they do a children's sociable. It is like a glorified talent show. My son has tried out three years in a row and has yet to make it. As a mom I struggle with two things.

1. I am not caring. When something goes wrong in my children's lives, it is not in my nature to console them and give them loves. It IS in my nature to tell them to quit feeling sorry for themselves and get over it. I feel bad. I should have wrapped my arms around my son and told him that I am sorry he hurt. I would do whatever I could to help him feel better. Than I should have taken him to get a treat. I fail in the caring department. I do recognize it and I am trying to be better!

2. This is not my cup of tea. Need a meal? I'm there. Need someone to help in the classroom? I got your back. Heck you need someone to be PTA president? Sure why not, I'm a sucker!! Need a number for the talent show? UMMMM Sorry, wrong person! I don't sing, dance, or even like to get in front of others and act. Cas on the other hand is all about being in front of others. He does drama out here and has been in their drama teachers number to try out for the sociable. She always does way cute things I just think they are too involved. Kind of hard for a show that has to move quickly. Sorry Cas. Maybe your dad can help!